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I’ll be glad once Thanksgiving comes, because then Halloween will be over and so will the elections! Things won’t get better no matter who gets into office, but at least there should be a temporary decline in malicious activity once people get busy preparing for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Hopefully pretty lights outdoors twinkling in the night will settle people down. Somehow I think the Norman Rockwell era is long past and ever increasing stress looms ahead (generally speaking).

I can feel and see evil activity subtly increasing lately. It’s not just the time of the year, but also the time of this world. I can’t speak for other neighborhoods, but I can say mine isn’t becoming very nice. Every day I go for a walk, I’m restoring what others are damaging.

I’m seeing hatred brewing within people that wasn’t there before (no, it has nothing to do with me). I’m not good at catching facial expressions. However, my husband noticed smirks on faces that never used to turn so nasty. 

In fact, I feel like I’m battling against a bad spirit(s?) myself lately. I find myself having to be extra cautious about what I read and who I allow contact with me. What’s worse is that I sense it trying to creep into my blog. 

This is one night sleep is not possible. While being awake throughout the night, I changed a couple of my blog’s pages.

Why wait for Thanksgiving to give thanks? I’m in the mood to start early. I guess the smell of a freshly shot wild turkey baking in the oven last night must have triggered that thought this morning upon my awakening?

Today, I’d like to thank the people who created Akismet. Non-bloggers might not know what Akismet is. I call it a blog’s bouncer. Why? Because a bouncer’s primary task is to keep underage, intoxicated, aggressive, and otherwise disqualified individuals from entering an establishment. Some clubs also require their bouncers to screen clients.

Most of the time I keep comments closed. Whenever I’m up to it, I may on some rare occasions briefly enable commenting. That’s when the doors to my establishment open and ‘Mr. Akismet’ does his job.

You might like how the folks at Akismet describe it better than my do-wacky way:

“You have better things to do with your life than deal with the underbelly of the internet. Automattic Kismet (Akismet for short) is a collaborative effort to make comment and trackback spam a non-issue and restore innocence to blogging, so you never have to worry about spam again.”

Almost everyone knows about spam in emails, but non-bloggers most likely don’t know spam can enter into blogs too.

So, fellow bloggers . . . have you given thanks for your ‘Mr. Akismet’ too?

[Edit 11-23-8; addition below]

Not everyone might know this—spam is not just porn or unwanted sellers; it’s also comes from people who have a problem with treating others respectfully whom they don’t like (especially those who refuse to agree with everything they believe).

I’m doing a ‘two-for-oner’ by posting a file I forgot I created years back that I recently came across.

First off, I’d like to show how ‘unemployed’ aspies (who don’t work) ‘earn’ money by preventing greedy people from taking it. This particular temporary ‘special interest’ of mine in dental research (that lasted for a season) kept $23,000 in the bank account (which later enabled hubby to have his lifetime dream of having a new truck fulfilled), even though $10,000 did get withdrawn. If I’m not being direct enough, this translates to mean there are some dentists who would take $33,000 to do a $10,000 project.

Secondly, I’d like to share my criteria I used when I began my several month long tour in search of a reliable, skilled, well-educated dentist who would take pride in his work. This list is for anyone interested in knowing what to consider for such a decision making process, especially those who must pay out of their own pocket.

I created this outline for myself after I made my decision to go for a major dental overhaul. Beside suffering the consequences of being raised without going on a regular basis to the dentist as a child, it was becoming evident that mercury poisoning from the large volume of amalgam fillings in my mouth was only getting worse with age. 

I created the list in outline form. Because of the outline program I used, transporting the file to any word processing program, followed by cutting and pasting it here, turns the outline into a list. That’s why I had to resort to screen shots and saving the file as jpegs.

Remember→ Even if this is not interesting to you, it doesn’t mean it can’t be interesting to anybody.

Self-pitying neurotypical anthropomorphites WILL make contented Aspies their personal project to fix, especially when they are “the Lion” and the Aspie is “the antelope”! [Stand back if the Aspie is also a lion rather than an antelope! That combination is deadly!] Why must these types of neurotypicals do that? Here are a few reasons:

1. NTs are hyper-social animals and have a difficult time understanding and accepting a different social structure that’s more sedate. The Aspergian community is typically a highly sedate cultural environment and most NTs don’t like that. It’s too foreign to them.
2. Projective identification causes NTs who hate the Aspies they know to mistakenly believe that these Aspies hate them, along with all the other NTs the discontented lioness is fond of. She will attack any Aspie whose behavior is beyond her comprehension, because she feels the urge to protect her pride of neurotypicals.
3. Anthropomorphites (in the widest sense of this term) tend to conceive the activities of the external world (Aspies are an external word to them) as being a counterpart of their own. NTs see Aspies as being fellow human beings, so therefore they believe that Aspies should think, act, dress, move, talk, sleep, eat, breath, and feel sensory data like NTs do. The neurotypical culture refuses to nurture an inter-species respect with the Aspie counterpart society.

I expounded upon the hyper-sociableness of the NT culture when I used the analogy of NTs being pack animals like dogs and Aspies being an “independent” species like cats. If you haven’t read it, go to my post Cats, Dogs, and Aspergers.

Left out from my above list of reasons was the factor of self-images. Most people compare levels of self-esteem by labeling them as being either high or low. I feel that can be misleading, because people who have a “low self-esteem” actually esteem themselves too highly and this can cause some who feel “worth less” (i.e., inadequate) to be able to “hide” this part of themselves. This pride in disguise becomes evident when you see them trying to take other people ‘down a peg or two’. If they can belittle you, they seem bigger to themselves. They want you to “be little” so they can “be big”.¹

True humility is not thinking less of yourself; it is thinking of yourself less. How can one with a “low self-esteem” be esteeming himself at a low level if he is always busy looking for faults in others to fix?

Self-pitying people think about themselves a lot. They are the ones who will be offended if their birthday is forgotten or they don’t receive the praise they believe they should get (e.g. “nice haircut”, “great shoes”, “delicious cake”, “beautiful house”, etc.). They want to be on the pedestal of fame to be admired and honored.  The word ‘esteem’ means to ‘think much of’. Thinking much can be done at both high and low levels, so it is an oxymoron to use the term “low self-esteem”. A healthy self-esteem² reveals itself in people who live by the principle ‘to each his own’ and they are the only ones who can truly have the same kind of love towards others as what they have towards themselves.

All people naturally love themselves, but not all people like to hear that or believe it. Rare is the person who loves all others (even ‘enemies’ like so-called ‘homophobics’ and ‘conservative Republicans’) with the same kind of love that is held for self. Mankind can love those who are lovable (who and/or what matches their tastes and likings), but only those born from above have the nature to love who society feels are the ‘un-love-ables’. Adult aspies (for the most part) fall into the category of the ‘un-love-ables’. If this wasn’t so, Aspergers would not be labeled as a ‘disorder’ or ‘disease’ and society would be putting forth effort to become acquainted with Aspies and be friends with them (i.e., accept and respect Aspergers as much as neurotypicals are!).

Last, but not least, anthropomorphism needs greater mention. I’m going to quote what Mrs. Obvious says in her article Grooming Lessons from a Real Groomer: Pet Psychology and use it as an analogy for a role reversal exercise neurotypical people should practice in regard to how they perceive Aspies:

“Lets do a little role reversal. Think about how you would feel if your dog tried to treat you like a dog instead of a human. You come home and the dog sniffs you all over. (He probably does this already and is makes you uncomfortable, doesn’t it?) The dog makes you eat the same food every day in a bowl on the floor. The dog asks you to fetch the paper and pee outside. Doesn’t this sound foreign and crazy? Wouldn’t you feel awkward and out of place to have the dog making you do dog behavior because he wants to treat you the same as himself, a dog? It is the same when you superimpose human qualities and human rights on your dog. Your dog is not the same as you. When you give a dog human rights you are in denial of how a dog was made to function.”

Normally I place all links where extra information came from within my body of text in posts. This time one is at the end. I could especially relate to this writing because of the attitude I pick up from jealous oppressive people who resent that I don’t have a ‘job’ (they also resent that I don’t like to throw parties) and would also would like to say to me, “No, you HAVE to work.” It’s from yahoo’s collection of answers to the question, Do self-pitying people project their self-pity onto those they resent for being content?

¹My words chosen are the same as someone else’s by coincidence.

²God’s view on self-esteem:

Luke 16:15, “And he said unto them, Ye are they which justify yourselves before men; but God knoweth your hearts: for that which is highly esteemed among men is abomination in the sight of God.”

Romans 12:3, “For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith.”→Why ‘measure of faith’? Because as faith increases, so does humility. Spiritual maturity means getting familiar with, “therefore but by the grace of God go I.”

What happens if a person acknowledges that someone may actually be suffering (the suffering is only from her perspective—not the Aspie’s) from this so-called Asperger ‘disease’ but still doesn’t want to learn anything about what Aspergers really is? Will she still be feeling superior or will she pity the ‘poor’ Aspie? Both will happen.

How could she feel superior? What would be evidence of it? For starters, when such a person believes she knows what’s best for the ‘ailing’ Aspie, it shows that she isn’t about to examine her own thinking to consider the possibility that just maybe the Aspie might know more than she does.

How do pretentiously compassionate people think? They think pills will come to the rescue to fix what they don’t like and/or understand. The alternative of self-examination to look for ways to truly be accepting and understanding of an Aspie by becoming properly educated requires genuine compassion. Genuine compassion doesn’t pity or give condescending sympathy (naturally, the one doing it isn’t aware of being condescending—heck, they’re not even aware of how little they’re thinking!). Real caring requires self-sacrifice and time. That isn’t too likely to happen in today’s fast-paced world of instant gratification that’s crammed full of over-activity.

Another foolish belief of neurotypical ‘do-gooders’ becomes evident when they think an Aspie needs to socialize with them on their terms after the Aspie’s meds have had a chance to do its magic.¹ You’d think they would be satisfied to forget about that Aspie who wants nothing from them and is content to mind her own business, but that’s not the way it works. To live by the rule To Each His Own doesn’t register in their brains. If it did, it would mean they have to stop trying to control what isn’t any of their business.

If I sound irritated, it’s because that’s how I feel. Anyone who is trespassed upon feels the same way. If the people who need to hear what I’m writing would even take the time to listen to me (instead of wishing to vomit nonsense they’d insist I swallow), I wouldn’t be needing to write this. Their unwillingness to listen speaks volumes.

¹Thanks to television commercials, they now have convenient drugs to name for others, but wouldn’t dare take themselves. Oh, they’ll consume bodily ailment medications, but the ‘mental health’ flavor is presumed to be manufactured for ‘other’ people.

Here are some problems which can come along with the disclosure of Aspergers:

1. You can be perceived as being a needy person, because you’re volunteering information and that causes people to think you want something from them. How does an Aspie know if an NT will not interpret his disclosure as being a cry for pity or sympathy or attention? There is no way to tell someone you’re an aspie without eliminating the possibility of them thinking you’re needy.
2. People can doubt there is something “wrong” with you, if you were able to graduate college, become married and have children, and don’t appear to be “retarded.”
3. Those who quit futilely trying to “adapt” into society, will be interpreted as being defiant.
4. Prejudice because of stigma and/or wrongful assumptions about aspergers puts an Aspie at risk when he associates with those who don’t want to make any accommodations for him.
5. Embracing Aspergers Syndrome can be taken as making an excuse to not accept the challenges to be “socially correct” in the manner neurotypicals see fit.
6. If an Aspie earned an income by being an artist or some other creative career, then he could possibly keep silent about being an Aspie. People don’t have the same expectations for ‘artistic/inventive’ Aspies, because of the reputation creative people have for being further out of the mainstream. Add to that, ‘artistic/inventive’ aspie females are not permitted to deviate as much as their male counterparts are.
7. It can invite condescending thoughts and remarks. An example of this is→ ”Even though it took you a long time to accomplish it, you now do the job well.” The insinuation is→ ”Aspergers slowed you down.” Ignorance speaks→ ”If you were not an Aspie, you could do the job just as well; except without the delay.”

The list could probably be longer, but thankfully I haven’t been hit with all the repercussions yet to know what I’ve left out. It’s either that or I’m too tired to remember them. Here are some other things I’ve learned about the disclosure of Aspergers:

The only reason someone will not try to learn what she can about an Aspie in her life is because she doesn’t want to. Aspies know it’s beyond a NT’s ability to fully comprehend an Aspie, so we don’t expect them to. NTs need to realize that Aspies can only know just a few minute samples of what’s expected of us (which is more than what NTs can know what Aspies expect of them!). Aspies are as hard pressed to find logic in NT behavior and thinking as NTs struggle to understand why logic should even be important. Regardless of all that, it is no excuse for either side to not try to learn as much as they can about what they don’t understand. So, when someone constantly excuses herself from putting forth any effort, it shows she is preferring to hang onto her version of the situation. She will resent an Aspie for disclosing this information to her, because to her, it is like having a thief breaking into her house to steal her misbeliefs. After all, how can you feel superior if all along you believed that so-and-so is an unfriendly bitch, lazy, spoiled, and stupid; only to have the covers pulled off to reveal that so-and-so is actually compassionate, kind, hard-working, abused, and highly intelligent. When mistakes like that become evident, it’s too much shame for such an NT to handle. Just because I say ‘she’ does not mean men cannot be covertly malicious too. Women tend to enjoy gossiping about other women more than men do about other men.

I thought I did the “How Not to Tell” people you are an Aspie because of my “one-shot” mass disclosure by blogging it. My timing of reading about this, along with recently being stunned by someone holding unjustifiable malice towards me, threw me way off course recently with my blog. That really triggered hasteful backtracking while looking for a way to do a ‘do-over’ with my blog. I intended to separate my publicized name from Aspergers. It’s not that I felt shameful of Aspergers. I thought I made a big mistake because the only Aspies I know who indiscriminately declare Aspergers are those who reap financial rewards for doing so. When people pay you to talk, obviously you’re respected. When you’re not famous and you willfully attach your real name to something most ignorant people view as a disorder and/or disease (without being monetarily compensated for it), you are highly likely to be viewed as extra weird.

I understand what Aspies are saying about needing to use caution with who to tell versus not to tell. I would not disclose my Aspergers to everyone who crosses my path offline. Online however, I cannot filter out the coarse sediment which may flow in my direction. All I can do is ignore it the best I can and close up whatever holes may attract the rats to weasel through. I avoid them like the bubonic plague, because that’s what they are to me.

My daughter teaches me what a friend is because she does things like gently pointing out to me that a blog is not like sending a detailed email to everyone I know. I tend to forget that no one is getting his arm twisted to come to my blog. Emails can be intrusive. The only way a blog can be intrusive is when things happen like a visitor becoming disturbed by being exposed to honesty he finds disagreeable to his tastes.

My husband agreed with me → people will either like me or not, regardless of whether or not they know I’m an Aspie. If my disclosure causes them to turn away from me, then that just simplifies my life. If it causes them to want to learn more, then that’s even better.

Now that I wiped this blog clean, I know it was what I wanted to do for a long time. I was looking for an excuse, but somehow I can’t see how getting logged out automatically too often¹ justifies such radical behavior.

[Edited on Sat., Oct. 18th '08→ The primary factors for this blog getting purged are stated in my Disclosure of Aspergers post. Also since then, the 'bug' I've had to deal with that was logging me out of my account has mysteriously disappeared!!! ]

I guess I’m simply exhibiting the second differentiating characteristic from this chart:

(You might be able to get a better view by clicking on the chart to go to its source.)

Ordinarily, I guess NTs often go along with changes in routines made upon them. Aspies however seem to have a very low tolerance for nonconsensual change, agitation, and aggression.

Looking back over my life, I see that almost every major event under my control has occurred backwards.² If I listed many examples of what I mean, it would be beyond anyone’s comprehension to figure out. Most people I’m sure would find such a list interesting. The problem is if I started to point them out, it would lead to endless explaining.

This isn’t something backwards, but it might be considered odd.→ Can someone get why I have a couple of dozen email accounts, but yet refuse to correspond by email? Over the past several years, I’ve created an embarrassing number of websites, blogs, and community forums — only to end up deleting about 95% of them. If 100% of them don’t end up gone, then that would be a miracle.

What profession does that kind of practice? No wonder I gave up on trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up!

I finally understand my behavior, but now that I do, it only motivates me to be even more reclusive than I already am.

¹Once or twice, may be tolerable. Strike three (especially when it continues for weeks) is too much for me.

²Even though I say the events were under my control, it doesn’t mean I planned it that way.

[Note: This post should really be titled, "My October 8th, 2008, Autism Theory." I do not have anything published online that would reflect whatever revisions I'd make to what I'm saying here in this post.]

I don’t feel quite ready to share with the world my present theory on autism, but since I don’t know what the future holds, maybe I should do it anyway.

I am beginning to see autism as being the other side of the coin of aspergers. It’s as if both are the same ‘neurological package’, which then explains much of the identical behaviors that lead people to lump Aspies and Auties together onto the Autism Spectrum. The difference that seems to becoming slowly evident (to me) is that one comes from the inside and reflects outward, whereas the other comes from the outside and reflects inward.

Aspergers is like my being naturally blonde and Autism would be like my left big toe’s nail. I’m not about to say Auties are a pain, so please forgive my lack of having a better analogy. The ‘after’ part of my toenail story leaves me with a less attractive toe than the ‘before’ one. The after toe is less painful when forced into shoes (to a NT world), but the before toe was fine when it could remain barefooted (in a neurodiverse world).

Once upon a time, I developed an ingrown toenail. Why, I don’t know…but I did. Because of giving in to a ‘socially correct’ demand (without praying about it first), I went to a podiatrist to have him remove it by laser surgery… just for the sake of fitting into a pair of high-heeled shoes for once in my life (to attend a wedding)!

The ‘treatment’ caused my ingrown toenail to no longer appear. The laser beam destroyed that part of my toenail which was ingrown. Since that was the only way to end the symptom of the ingrown nail, it leads me to suspect that it was not truly ‘cured’ but rather merely ‘disappeared’. I can make my blonde (or now grey, depending on what kind of light I’m in) hair disappear too, if I dye it another color.

Aspergers can be masked (not totally, but enough to fool people) by practicing neurotypical behavior (first though it has to be taught, since it doesn’t come natural). Aspie behavior is natural for Aspergers people, because it is who we are (not what we are). Autism however, I’m beginning to suspect, is not natural. I don’t mean it is something that is learned or intentionally self-generated.

Autism seems to be something triggered from an external source. I believe this because physical illnesses are not natural, but yet people can live with them. Many are not even visible and/or make you feel bad. People can ‘recover’ from things like a stroke just like Jenny McCarthy claims her son Evan has ‘recovered’ from his Autism. That means, Autism can’t be cured, but it could possibly be ‘remedied’ for the neurotypical world’s satisfaction. To the Adult Autism Spectrum community though, this kind of change is not generally viewed as a ‘remedy’ but rather as ‘eugenic propaganda’. An analogy would be the debate between homo sexuality being something genetic (nature) versus self-inspired (nurture). [Saying this does not make me a bigot!] I’m not saying that Auties deliberately make themselves Autistic. Being Autistic can be as enjoyable to an Autie as someone who is gay can enjoy being a non-heterosexual. If my theory is true, that would mean Aspergers can’t be cured OR ‘remedied’. It would also mean Autism is not natural, but Aspergers is.

If my theory is correct, that would explain why Aspies get burned out from trying to act neurotypical for too long. The adrenaline it takes to keep doing so causes burnout during the middle aged years. This theory would also explain why children like Evan (assuming he is Autistic and not Aspergers) don’t look miserable when they are behaving in an apparent neurotypical fashion.

There would be explanations for many other things besides what I’ve already mentioned, if what I’ve said is true. The most important aspect of all this would be in the way neuro-a-typical children would be educated, trained, and pharmaceutically treated. The proper result would be a lot less children being medicated. It is a shame that there are people who feel threatened by quirky brilliance and prefer to deal with this kind of intelligence by administering drugs to dumb down what they can’t understand and don’t want too much time to think about.

I’ll enable comments for now, but will delete any that appear written for debate. I don’t really want to discuss my theory. I need to conserve my time and energy for other things and to continue researching more into this. Either new information I find will cause me to reconsider putting Aspergers back into the Autism Spectrum or it will confirm my suspicions even stronger.

Those who have more money (usually the white-collar workers) or someone else’s money to spend (e.g., government controlled health insurance), don’t seem to know how some of us on the other side think.

I’m not complaining about having less money to spend than others or about not having man’s health insurance (God’s plan isn’t corrupted). I am actually quite thankful for my lot in life. The Prayer of Agur¹ might not be popular, but what can you expect when there are more fools than wise men?

I’m reading Michael John Carley‘s book Asperger’s from the Inside Out. Like most books, it needs to be read cautiously. I can understand why he says what he does. Most Aspies would think and feel like he does, but not all do. I won’t get into every part of his book where I deviate, but I will bring up one statement though. It bugs me whenever I see subjective claims being expressed as objective ones. Here is an example:

I agree, support groups can create good feelings. I don’t agree with Carley’s blanket statement (on page 54) that Aspies need individualized therapy. Aspies can want this and maybe non-Christian Aspies do need it, but he should not speak for me. God only knows what I need and He always faithfully reveals it to me. When other agents enforce upon me what it is they think I need, they create problems in my life and then leave me to clean up the mess.

Whenever people corral others into their penned opinion, they can cause problems for those who are of a different herd. What makes this especially upsetting is the problem behind who gets to decide who are the appropriate therapists.² Yes, people get to choose their therapists, doctors, dentists, etc. (usually, but not always!). But… politics get the upper hand behind the scene. [Look at how the government's schools deal with issues they won't admit being unable to handle.] Laws get made like the Senate bill 6527-B, which directs the Commissioner of Heath to establish best practice protocols for the early screening of children for autism spectrum disorders (this was passed on July 27, 2008). I don’t know about anybody else, but to me, I see a lot of loop-holes here and vagueness that opens the door wide for people (who love money) to use people. Add to that potential chaos, misdiagnoses and hastily prescribed meds.³ What if it can be proven later that Aspergers does not belong on the Autism Spectrum and Aspie children are forced into the same treatment mold as Autie children?…then what? The repercussions could be enormous.

I can see that those (e.g., psychologist) who have it (i.e., money) don’t get it (comprehend) when you try to tell them you can’t afford to pay them what they are asking for. Usually they want $100 an hour, but they may settle for $40 instead if they think they’re not going to get the amount they’d like. That’s fine, but what isn’t okay is to assume that $40 a week (how many weeks is enough?) wouldn’t be missed from the ‘grocery’ money. Only the people living in the household know if $40/wk would be cutting into the entrée rather than desserts. It’s not for someone else to decide.

I know some (maybe all?) of what I’ve said here will be taken the wrong way, but I can’t do anything about that. To whoever may be upset by my words, I don’t mean to step on your toes. However, keep in mind I have just as many toes as any other person and they have feelings too.

¹Proverbs 30:7-9,
“Two things have I required of thee; deny me them not before I die:
Remove far from me vanity and lies: give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with food convenient for me:
Lest I be full, and deny thee, and say, Who is the LORD? or lest I be poor, and steal, and take the name of my God in vain.”

²Those who know the blessings learned in Psalm 1:1→ “Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly.” ← would not find appropriate therapy in humanistic psychology for their life… useful information yes, therapy no.

³Long-term effects will reveal mistakes when the pharmaceutical industry doesn’t want to.

I don’t know if NT (neurotypical) moms pay more attention to their NAT (neuro-a-typical) child’s physical environment than they do to what might be going on inside that child’s mind. Mind reading isn’t possible, but possibly these moms realize already that hyper and hypo sensitivity exists just as well from what thoughts are occurring as it does from what senses are being aroused by a child’s surroundings?

It’s always very important for me to understand as much as I possibly can. Logic is my hero! I can’t imagine life without it. I am exactly as The Logic Boy is described!

Sometimes though, logic isn’t enough. That’s where faith comes in.¹ Truth is the best medication for a troubled soul! I got a good reminder of that late last night.

Most people know you shouldn’t drink coffee, soda, eat chocolate, or have anything containing caffeine, close to bedtime. However, never underestimate what a disturbing thought can do before bedtime, especially if you’re an Aspie!

Darcy couldn’t have known that God would use perfect timing to lead me to her blog shortly after midnight. I used to say the same thing she did, “God never gives you more than you can handle.” God bless Darcy for naming her blog What We Need to pass along what a woman once said to her. It was, “No, God gives us what we need.”

After reading that powerful statement, I remembered I read that page of hers before and forgot that God gives His children exactly what they need. When you trust God implicitly, that’s all you need to know sometimes!

Anyhow, that thought, God gives us what we need, instantly put my mind and body to rest. I slept peacefully and can now enjoy today because I feel rested!

¹I choose to be misleading by saying faith can lack logic, because few people would believe that I can actually see the logic behind everything God gives and does. I’m not saying this was always the case though. This (super?)-natural ability is something only God can give to a person. There is no way I can teach it to others. Either God gives you it or He doesn’t. I can’t know why He chose to give me His gift of faith which happens to include logic. The only logical explanation I can come up with is actually quite simple→ That is what I need.

King Solomon prayed for wisdom. He got that and financial wealth; we got the book of Proverbs. I prayed for the gift of wisdom too (since being gullible is an Aspie characteristic, Godly wisdom is a must have). I received what I asked for (but I don’t always remember to use it!). However, instead of receiving financial wealth as a surprise bonus (which in my cause would probably destroy my life and make me miserable), I got a wealth of logic. Logic and wisdom are my best friends!